The Phoenix 🐦‍🔥 Fire Rises. As the Whore Claims Her Throne: Notes on Power, Sex, and Resurrection

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The Phoenix 🐦‍🔥 Fire Rises. As the Whore Claims Her Throne: Notes on Power, Sex, and Resurrection

I. The 🔥 Fire

The fire in my belly has been everything: a warning, a punishment, a source. It has been the heat of shame, the blaze of desire, and the slow, smoldering ember of a rage that could burn down worlds. Now, it is the sacred pyre for my symbolic death. And from these ashes, I rise—a phoenix, sensual and unbound.

I am 55. My “education” began at four. I am humorous, sassy, sexy, deeply empathetic, and armed with a logical mind that thrives on the unorthodox. My disdain for hypocrisy is as visceral as my need for oxygen. I am a woman who has graduated—summa cum laude—from the school of sexual experience and the academy of social and familiar shunning. My degrees are in Survival, Sensuality, and Self-Possession.

II. The Awakening ⏰☀️: A Body Betrayed and Claimed

My first introduction to sex wasn’t a whisper; it was a violation disguised as a secret. At four years old , I was mentally seduced by an adult man, Macnerry, who taught me that my body could be a source of awful yet fascinating feelings. I now know that feeling as arousal—a biological truth twisted into a weapon. Then they told me I was the cause, that I was bad, and that no one would believe me. I carried their shame like a lead cloak, yet beneath it, a spark of my own wonder and desire refused to be extinguished.

This is the paradox so many survivors know: the body betrays us with its pleasure, utterly confusing the neat narrative of pure victimhood.

The feelings from that time are like awful yet interesting memories. It was awful because I was told I could tell no one—that I was the cause of grown men’s feelings for me! That I was bad and that no one would believe me regardless. I knew what happened was wrong, but the depictions in media warped my perception of rape and molestation.

Their stories were filled with guilt, but I had none. Just wonder, physical desires, and disgust. I did not understand it, but sometimes, I enjoyed it. Rape became a part of my understanding of sex, not because it is natural, but because we live in a world that buries it, blames the girl, and shames the biology it cannot control. The toxic glorification of machismo and the infantilization of femininity create the perfect storm for this violence.

III. The Hypocrisy: Morality as a Weapon—A Recent Case Study

Why is “pornography” such a dirty word? The ancient Greeks, from whom we borrow the term, were more open about sexual imagery than our modern, pearl-clutching societies. Pornē meant prostitute, and graphos meant writing. A pornographos was simply a painter of courtesans—a trade, not a sin.

Yet here we are, centuries later, pointing fingers and crucifying others for desires we all harbor. This hypocrisy doesn’t just cause shame; it kills spirit, it kills truth, and it makes war on the bodies of the vulnerable. Let me give you a fresh, raw example.

A recent court case perfectly mimics the one from my son’s past, orchestrated by the same family member. You see, after they failed to steal my son’s body from me after his death, they needed a new way to show me they are in control.

They removed my mother from her independent living situation, took her phone, and took me to court accusing me of financially abusing my mom. I think they assumed the car I financed was bought with her credit? The truth is, I built my own credit, paid it back early, and bought my own car with my own score. The only card I have for the Miskitu Nation Foundation, my mom took me to the bank to put my name on it. I was the only one helping her actualize her dream for our people, traveling back and forth to Central America with humanitarian aid, financing projects for seeds, crops, computers, and cell phones for alternative studies out of my own pocket.

But in court, the truth was irrelevant.

I was accused of being the reason for my son’s meth addiction and HIV status. They gaslighted the room and claimed that me being a sex worker made me capable of having molested my son from his first years into adulthood. Interesting, isn’t it? Why wasn’t this monstrous lie mentioned in the 2005 custody battle, but suddenly remembered for this order in 2025? I had him from birth to eight years old. We reunited when he was 20; he moved out at 23 and got addicted to meth during COVID, after his boyfriend kicked him out. That same boyfriend then showed up with that family member to the mortuary with a pink marriage paper to try and remove my son’s body from my care.

It was traumatic. Old wounds were ripped open. I will never have closure. The triggers that came up… it was like him being taken all over again, screaming from my arms. I walked out of the mortuary office and into my car, unable to form words, just screaming.

In court, they claimed I kept people from leaving the mortuary for hours, that staff had to hide them and they were picked up on a street corner to be “safe from me.” Then, the star witness they said would back their story actually told the truth. They testified on paper and willingly in person on my behalf, giving a total contradiction of the claim against me.

But it didn’t matter. My status as a sex worker allowed people of “higher morals” to ignore due process. My family member was not held to account for their lies.

These people go to different churches. They are supposed to be people of higher value and morals than my sex-working, advocate self.

I guess you can tell that still bugs me?

The judge agreed with them. Based on my testimony about being part of the Royal Family and helping our people who are victims of genocide, the judge said, “I’m siding with Mrs. [Curse] due to your declaration.” The judge kept cutting me off and refused to let me present my witnesses. The lack of due process is now in appeals.

But still, those who feel superior to me—to anyone like me—should act accordingly. They should supersede their presumed lowliness of me and have the conviction to behave according to their own stated values: respect, religious righteousness, and a path of law and legal process. They never do.

IV. The Reclamation: Sacred Whores and Serpent Wisdom

I sought affirmation from a dear, wonderful lady I’d like to call a friend, Katrina Sisowath, because I just knew. I know my history in other lives. I know the power of the words they sling as insults.

She told me that the word “whore” originates from “Hor” or “Hierodulai”—the sacred temple priestesses of Inanna. These women were not degraded; they were educated, powerful healers, musicians, and philosophers. They wore robes of scarlet, the color of life force and power. They were advisors to kings, bearers of sacred knowledge, and their sexuality was a bridge to the divine.

The serpent, now demonized as the tempter in Eden, was once a universal symbol of wisdom, healing, and transformation—from the Nagas of Southeast Asia to Quetzalcoatl of the Mesoamericans. It was the emblem of these powerful priestesses. Patriarchy had to slay the dragon, demonize the serpent, and recast the sacred whore as a sinner to consolidate its power. They stripped us of our history to more easily control our present.

V. The Work: Power, Pleasure, and Philosophy

So, yes. I am a sex worker, jokester rebel, poet, idealist, former mother, aunt, amazing cook, model, lover, delivery person, blogger, entertainer… I am a Dominatrix, a philosopher of flesh, spirit, and authentic power.

In my world, BDSM is not pathology; it is a theater of consensual power, a sacred space where urges are explored with negotiation and respect. “It gave birth to the Sadist/Masochist in me!” I love the dance—the brilliance of humility in submission, the intense responsibility of dominance. It is a consensual, erotic rollercoaster, a world away from the non-consensual violence I survived, thrived in, and conquered.

When they say I “sell my body,” I laugh. If that’s the case, then every day laborers are selling their strength, every model their smile, every doctor their brain and hands. Do you know the anatomy, dear reader? Are there any exclusions? My work is no different. I provide an outlet for exploration, a service for healing, a space for fantasy. I use my mind, my empathy, my voice. I help people un-repress, un-shame, and reclaim their own sensual selves.

I learned from giants like Carol Leigh, the legendary Scarlet Harlot who coined the term “sex work.” She was my mentor, a mother figure in the darkness. I’ve interviewed others like Susan Wright, who fought to decouple sexual expression from mental illness, helping to change the official manual to state that a mere paraphilia is not a disorder. Liking kinky stuff doesn’t make you mentally ill; it makes you human. She didn’t know it at the time, but when we spoke of parents losing their kids, it triggered me—and finally, I knew I was not alone.

VI. The Legacy: Blood and Fire

This fight is in my blood. From my mother, Reverend Josephenie Hendy Clarence, Matriarch of the Miskitu Nation, I learned conviction, respect for all life, healing, and unconditional love. Even when she was forced to shun me, I hold no grudges. GodGoddess knows her journey. In 1957, after the Somoza government murdered her brothers and uncles for defending our land and sovereignty, she was given a choice: exile or a firing squad. She chose exile, believing she could be of better service to our people alive than as a martyr. For six decades, she has been our unwavering voice from afar.

Now, the torch passes to me. As her daughter, my advocacy for human rights and bodily autonomy is inextricably linked to the fight for my people’s sovereignty. The same forces that displaced my mother—the greed for resources, the denial of self-determination—are the ones that seek to control women’s bodies and erase our histories. My fight for the decriminalization of sex work is part of the same battle for the right to exist, freely and on our own terms.

VII. The Rise

I am not just a survivor. I am a phoenix.

I have been burned by shame, judgment, and profound loss. I have been shunned by family, betrayed by courts, and burdened with grief. But the fire in my belly was never extinguished. It was refined.

It is the fire of the sacred priestess, the wisdom of the serpent, the resilience of my Miskitu, Haitian, French, and Sudanese ancestors, and the unashamed joy of a woman who has reclaimed her body, her pleasure, and her power.

I am a Human. I am a queen in my own right. I am a logical, spiritual, sensual, sexual and unorthodox force of nature… And I am rising!!!

Ckiara

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